What's so good being 21? An adult?
Recently up tight with money issues, it's driving me really up the wall.
I don't want to rely on anybody, to help me in my finances for degree studies.
$5.3K for first installment and i have to pay them by 2nd may.
Even if i work, i will not have enough by the end of the month.
I was so fucking stressed, and fucking afraid to ask dad to lend me.
Because for poly days, asking him 2K for poly fees already kena.
And it's so unfair because I used my psea to pay my poly fees for the other sems and did not even use his cpf. And bro and sis loan from him and i didnt even.
It was so bad, i cried so badly. Now it's 5K. Imagine. Just fucking imagine.
Why is it so unfair? Other kids out there can study in peace without any worries for school fees. And I was only 18 when i have to start worrying about money issues. Money for food when dad forgot to give allowance, money for school fees, money for necessity. Why?
Bank loan isnt a solution either. Because it requires time.
And a grantor. Alongside with the accumulative interest. And the following installments when school starts. I will fucking be forever in debts. It is not a small sum. And it's driving me mad.
Final solution, I asked bro. Really thankful of him being willing to lend me the money.
But he really hurt my feelings. Asking for email verification as if I am conning him or whatsoever. Showing whatever attitude and suggesting me to pay 1K per month when i get my pay.
I'm your sister. It's not as if i will run anywhere. Not any further even if i want to. When i say i will return, i will.
When i was so fucking pissed and depressed, he then say i can take my time to pay. If i can hold 10 jobs in a month, to pay you off asap, i swear i will. Even if i turn into a zombie.
Job starting soon and I was notified i must wear formal wear for work. And i only have one set. And $100 left for the month of may.
I'm so fucking sian and headache now.
I know that these things will be over soon as long as it get settled one by one. But it's really taking a troll of me.
I think im pushing people away again. I don't know. I rather them be unaware of what i'm going through and stay cheerful, than me affecting their moods with my problems.
Maybe it's just me, if i were to suffer, i would rather suffer alone.
So, i shall just shutup. As usual.
X,
Recently up tight with money issues, it's driving me really up the wall.
I don't want to rely on anybody, to help me in my finances for degree studies.
$5.3K for first installment and i have to pay them by 2nd may.
Even if i work, i will not have enough by the end of the month.
I was so fucking stressed, and fucking afraid to ask dad to lend me.
Because for poly days, asking him 2K for poly fees already kena.
And it's so unfair because I used my psea to pay my poly fees for the other sems and did not even use his cpf. And bro and sis loan from him and i didnt even.
It was so bad, i cried so badly. Now it's 5K. Imagine. Just fucking imagine.
Why is it so unfair? Other kids out there can study in peace without any worries for school fees. And I was only 18 when i have to start worrying about money issues. Money for food when dad forgot to give allowance, money for school fees, money for necessity. Why?
Bank loan isnt a solution either. Because it requires time.
And a grantor. Alongside with the accumulative interest. And the following installments when school starts. I will fucking be forever in debts. It is not a small sum. And it's driving me mad.
Final solution, I asked bro. Really thankful of him being willing to lend me the money.
But he really hurt my feelings. Asking for email verification as if I am conning him or whatsoever. Showing whatever attitude and suggesting me to pay 1K per month when i get my pay.
I'm your sister. It's not as if i will run anywhere. Not any further even if i want to. When i say i will return, i will.
When i was so fucking pissed and depressed, he then say i can take my time to pay. If i can hold 10 jobs in a month, to pay you off asap, i swear i will. Even if i turn into a zombie.
Job starting soon and I was notified i must wear formal wear for work. And i only have one set. And $100 left for the month of may.
I'm so fucking sian and headache now.
I know that these things will be over soon as long as it get settled one by one. But it's really taking a troll of me.
I think im pushing people away again. I don't know. I rather them be unaware of what i'm going through and stay cheerful, than me affecting their moods with my problems.
Maybe it's just me, if i were to suffer, i would rather suffer alone.
So, i shall just shutup. As usual.
X,
